..

i kept on sighing the boring life in
sucking the air loathing it all together

i dont have any reason left for me to go on

what the hell am i looking for?

maybe you would know what i want?.. probably..

well if you dont mind telling me what to do next i life?

perhaps not.. life would be boring if it is very much predicted like that.

i want you to know.

and i want you to tell me

tell me how you made me feel.
tell me this whole thing that happened is unreal

so that i could atleast take them back

things you dont want to hear.. i 'll take em back

i would do anything for you
you are that kinda person..

that i would fight for.
that i would jump to deep falls for.
that i would held my breath everytime i meet you

its uncontrollable.

when will it stop?.

Lullaby

this is the time when my hearts screams.
i cant sit still
i have to move around in places
thinking of that.. you know..
;(

Another Something i Wrote in my Doodle Book

i just cant afford to sleep
with a heart pounding for more
you'd guess this heartbeats
crying out loud as he speaks
Angel, thy voice,
As only one drop heals me sorrow
i have to hear him everyday
even now and tomorrow's morrow
he speaks as he sings
Carnival to a life
my dull life is now a circus
now that he came with non effort
i'd fly for him all the way
to mount Olympus
and meet thy myth gods
To ask the emperor, for mine and only
Entreu my guests..
the cloud of Angel and me

....

oh dear
i would sit here all day
by the pavements
watching the clouds cry
washing my tears all the way
though the day was torn and grey
i glow alone in my heart
the only girl in the county
people cry but she, smiles
all the burden seemed like a feather
cheers to the memories to come
The one that will last forever

LOVE

oh prince charming come and set me free

oh well look what youve done

altho its been only a few days, i felt like i havent blog for years.
i really still cant believe the fact that King's Cross won. we won buddies XD we won we won we won. haha xp well, that is the result of all the hardships and teamwork. now i miss all of them.

i stay as still as the cold waters
wondering what have brought me here
im way up here beyond any ground
and i know that i've fallen so many times
but today
i wont

i'm waking up
breathing the right air i should be
and this time i wont give up
and let my hope shatters infront of me
take a step ahead
stop dreaming to reactions
fill you heart with this song
and look where ive stand
i'm with the best hand in hand
for that i cant ask for more.

what have i always wanted to do?

• ballet
• figure skating
• go kart
• visit an art gallery
• go to Japan XD
• publish my works. (hmm nt gonna happen)
• dance with someone close to heart :)
• sit by the seaside and sketch
• loads more xp
  

King's Cross :D

did you see that coming? i bet you didnt, look baby, its Victory

baby still can pose ;)

yeah

pro kan ;)

i miss her so much, she sleeps with me always but now she's there ;(

its okay baby, i pray for your health =D

<3333333333333333456789>

New Sunshine

in the beginning,
every sunshine that ive greeted,
with unbroken smiles and everlasting hope,
galloping in the salted mist,
leaving the layout sand
with marks of my pirouettes
the perfect kind of gentle
the golden rights of hazy sun rays.
its the time where
i knew how to love
i learnt how to laugh
but most of all
i tasted a new taste of despair
my cry.
the mountain high of hopes that crawls beneath
leaving me only a choice to die
simple verbs came from that angel lips
only meant the deepest core of its tragedy
untangling tongues
to be of softly speaking
but all that was spoke was all more of heartbreaking.
any stranger that passes wont come to listen
it would only take a minute
to understand
it would only take a few seconds
to even like,
pay attention
just for a little time
it doesnt even matter
just recognize
and say whatever
that makes the other person feel better.

i pray
a silent inner pray
every day of the week
pray to lord
let me be brave to speak
although i am just as any other person
the weak
but i have my love to protect
my heart to open

please.

Part of My long long long Essay ;P

she felt her own heart pouncing out of her chest. Screeching to get out leaving herself dead. that would be a better conclusion than facing this stupid life. "No Miss Felton, you cant help me or bring my mother back to life can you? Nobody in the world can help me. I'm alone noe, and it is my fate."

"There is where youre wrong. Youre thinking that this was all suppose to be this way, as though your mother left you because she wanted to, and for that you want to live alone in the dark all by yourself, carrying the burden like you deserve it. Think about it, Mika. All this feelings youre having is all made from you. You can change how you feel, how you live, to be a better person or maybe anybody at all, be you. You dont realize you own your body, you have powers over it. Trust me, if you just believe in goodwill, surrender your days to God and not end it by your own remark, lay hope everyday and never give up, i believe in you that you will go through this, Mika. I believe in You".

...
by an essay "Thank You, Teacher"
Siti Amirah

Inka tagged me

SUPPOSEDLY if you've seen over 85 films, you have no life. Mark the ones you've seen. There are 239 films on this list. Copy this list, go to your own Facebook account, paste this as a note. Then, put x's next to the films you've seen, add them up, change the header adding your number, and click post at the bottom. Have fun.

( ) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
( ) Boondock Saints
(x) Fight Club
(x) Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
( ) Blazing Saddles
( ) Airplane (Flying High)
Total: 6

( ) The Princess Bride
( ) Anchorman
(x) Napoleon Dynamite
( ) Labyrinth
(x) Saw
(x) Saw II
( ) White Noise
(x) White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates
(x) The Princess Diaries
(x) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
Total so far: 14

( ) Scream
( ) Scream 2
( ) Scream 3
( ) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
() Scary Movie 3
(x) Scary Movie 4
(x) American Pie
(x) American Pie 2
(x) American Wedding
( ) American Pie Band Camp
Total so far: 19

(x) Harry Potter 1
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
(x) Resident Evil 1
(x) Resident Evil 2
( ) The Wedding Singer
(x) Little Black Book
( ) The Village
(x) Lilo & Stitch
Total so far: 27

(x) Finding Nemo
(x) Finding Neverland
( ) Signs
(x) The Grinch
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
(x) White Chicks
(x) Butterfly Effect
(x)13 Going on 30
(x) I, Robot
(x) Robots
Total so far: 35

(x) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
( ) Universal Soldier
(x) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(x) Along Came Polly
( ) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
(x) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers
(x) Eight Crazy Nights
(x) Joe Dirt
(x) King Kong
Total so far: 44

(x) A Cinderella Story
(x) The Terminal
(x) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
(x) Dumber & Dumberer
(x) Final Destination
(x) Final Destination 2
(x) Final Destination 3
(x) Halloween
(x) The Ring
(x) The Ring 2
( ) Surviving X-MAS
(x) Flubber
Total so far: 57

(x) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
( ) Practical Magic
(x) Chicago
(x) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
(x) Hellboy
(x) Secret Window
( ) I Am Sam
() The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Whole Ten Yards
Total so far: 62

(x) The Day After Tomorrow
( ) Child's Play
( ) Seed of Chucky
( ) Bride of Chucky
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
(x) Just Married
(x) Gothika
( ) Nightmare on Elm Street
( ) Sixteen Candles
( ) Remember the Titans
(x) Coach Carter
(x) The Grudge
(x) The Grudge 2
(x) The Mask
(x) Son Of The Mask
Total so far: 71

(x) Bad Boys
(x) Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
(x) Lucky Number Slevin
(x) Ocean's Eleven
(x) Ocean's Twelve
(x) Bourne Identity
(x) Bourne Ultimatum
(x) Lone Star
(x) Bedazzled
(x) Predator I
(x) Predator II
(x) The Fog
(x) Ice Age
(x) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
(x) Curious George
Total so far: 88

(x) Independence Day
( ) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
(x) Darkness Falls
(x) Christine
(x) ET
() Children of the Corn
(x) My Boss's Daughter
(x) Maid in Manhattan
(x) War of the Worlds
(x) Rush Hour
(x) Rush Hour 2
Total so far: 97

( ) Best Bet
(x) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x) She's All That
(x) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
() Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
(x) Ever After
(x) Wizard of Oz
(x) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
(x) The Terminator
(x) The Terminator 2
(x) The Terminator 3
Total so far: 106

(x) X-Men
(x) X-2
(x) X-3
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
(x) Sky High
(x) Jeepers Creepers
(x) Jeepers Creepers 2
(x) Catch Me If You Can
(x) The Little Mermaid
(x) Freaky Friday
( ) Reign of Fire
( ) The Skulls
(x) Cruel Intentions
(x) Cruel Intentions 2
(x) The Hot Chick
(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2
Total so far: 122

( ) Swimfan
( ) Miracle on 34th street
(x) Old School
(x) The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
( ) Krippendorf's Tribe
(x) A Walk to Remember
( ) Ice Castles
(x) Boogeyman
( ) The 40-year-old Virgin
Total so far: 125

(x) Lord of the Rings Fellowship of the Ring
(x) Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
(x) Lord of the Rings Return Of the King
() Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
() Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
() Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
Total so far: 128

( ) Baseketball
() Hostel
( ) Waiting for Guffman
( ) House of 1000 Corpses
( ) Devils Rejects
(x) Elf
(x) Highlander
( ) Mothman Prophecies
( ) American History X
( ) Three
Total so Far: 130

( ) The Jacket
(x) Kung Fu Hustle
(x) Shaolin Soccer
( ) Night Watch
(x) Monsters Inc.
(x) Titanic
() Monty Python and the Holy Grail
( ) Shaun Of the Dead
( ) Willard
Total so far: 134

( ) High Tension
( ) Club Dread
(x) Hulk
() Dawn Of the Dead
(x) Hook
(x) Chronicles Of Narnia: The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
(x) 28 Days Later
( ) Orgazmo
( ) Phantasm
( ) Waterworld
Total so far: 138

() Kill Bill Vol. 1
( ) Kill Bill Vol. 2
(x) Mortal Kombat
( ) Wolf Creek
(x) Kingdom of Heaven
(x ) The Hills Have Eyes
( ) I Spit on Your Grave aka The Day of the Woman
( ) The Last House on the Left
( ) Re-Animator
( ) Army of Darkness
Total so far: 141

(x) Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
(x) Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
(x) Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
(x) Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope
(x) Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
(x) Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
( ) Ewoks Caravan Of Courage
( ) Ewoks The Battle For Endor
Total so far: 147

(x) The Matrix
(x) The Matrix Reloaded
(x) The Matrix Revolutions
(x) Animatrix
( ) Evil Dead
( ) Evil Dead 2
( ) Team America: World Police
(x) Red Dragon
() Silence of the Lambs
(x) Hannibal



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theres still more movies i watched. >:P




People i tag
qaasim
kak natasha
anis
surayyn
fariz
jojo
shuying

GLORIOUS food day. :D

i ate alot. as in alot. had roti canai for breakfast. lunch had ten don.(doraemon n mr teddy had the same ;D ) after that, had a few bites of alfin's seaweed wrap. then i had baskin. then alfin got me the japanese ice cream. then i had some of his mee sua (now i know how it tastes like.. damn nice :D) then i took one of the chewy fishcake anis offered me. it was rlly chewy chewing gum hhaha, but aint bad. (everybody in the world would know i wont say no to food) then they all started to ask me to try a fish? was it? i dnt know but it looked crispy and alota red sauce, i asked whether its spicy, but they just kept on saying "just try lah" so i ate it, and when its already in my mouth then only anis started blabbering abt alan ate it and died, and someone else she mentioned ate it and died. -.-" IT WAS FREAKING SPICY, she even took a picture of me that time, spicy face so she says.. anis anis -.-" haha. so then a few seconds later i saw a takoyaki stall and it called my name, so i bought takoyakis and ate em in the car on the way back home. so basically the whole day is like food fair. :D:D:D:D::D:D:D:D:D
i love i love.


alesia bought her dream bag! fish her la, it has yellow stripes on em, besides green also got, the main reason she bought it. <3 you

it was kinda a fun day, mainly because i didnt get bullied. ;)

but not rlly fun because, qaasim not complete. ;(

will be another day.

beside the fact that i ate alot already.. i am craving to bite something. this is bad

Pondan Moi

alfin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lalalalala. is apparently my sister. hhaha. he is vain XD no lah nt rlly. but seriously i go to him if i need fashion advice, he knows just what to say. the coolest person ;) he's there for me when i need help and etc. a caring guy, aint that rare? ;D very sweet. good looking. (haha i'm like promoting him already, kinda am actually xd ) i really miss you when you were chubby la! he sings so well now, i'm damn proud of this fella, cause like the first time i heard him sing.. it was.. haha, no need to say la, but now, yeah, he really knows how to melt a girl's heart. everything he does comes from his heart. (what are you waiting for ladies? he's a killer:P) XD haha. i dont know what to say now, but i'll edit soon, theres so many things i can say about him, though theres too much and i am kinda tired ;D so yeah fin.

Apologies

i am so sorry, lately when i think about writing i dont write here that much anymore. most of the time i write in my diary, cause its more convenient ( XD ) so yeah. ;D

QAASIM

this is my other twin. yeah, our relatives always mistaken us for one another, her granddad once thought i was her and called me by her name. even my dad also thought she was me for afar. XD haha. oh yea we love it. if we're combined.. oh-oh boy youre in trouble. dont you dare mess with my qis ^.^ i call her Ayu <3 known this girl since i was an infant!

and here my energized pig. me love this pig very much. she's so nice and cool when she's calm, but wait til she get high all of sudden, she kisses anyone who gets in the way! but yet, her crazyness clicks with mine so thats why we get along i guess. no other person would layan my crappy moods and bodoh jokes or craziness but her. so buddy live long for me :D


Mae is the saviour of my hollow dull side of my life! i am really thankful that she's the same school with me, everytime we see each other we'll shriek!! no matter how many times we bump into one another, i miss her every second of every minute of everytime<3 not only the lollies in school, Mae if i would i'd give you all the lollies in the world! AAAAANk/zG8-cC3b1Dc/s1600-h/alia.jpg">alia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah, the PINK PRETTY PERKY. she is the person that would cheer you up when youre down with her perky-ness. this girl would talk and talk nonstop even if no one would be listenin, in the end she sulks "HEYY! YOU GUYS ARE NOT PAYING ATTENTION TO ME!" the cutest dangerous hot tiny little Alia. <3 AAAAANU/ISQR_UCesEs/s1600-h/alesia.jpg">and finally, i want to end my chicks with the BOMB DIGGITY one. this is mine. she is half of my guts! she has the most big mouth la i'll say haha. and her temper is outrageous! but to me its nothing. especially when she gets sarcastic to me i couldnt be bothered cause i know she still loves me. XD this girl is one bad ass chick and she's proud of it. awesome kan??? ;) ive known her this whole 5-6 years and i aint regretting one moment ive spent with her :D


i miss you guys ;(

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my 222nd post :D

oh well this morning i really hadnt the energy to go to school! i was like uh.. dtb ;( during perhimpunan i was really really really mengantuk. i couldnt stand at all, i trie to focus to the speeches but i never rlly did! who listens anyway, so i tried to rest my head, i was so tired til i had headaches..

then thank you my angels! i received a note from Mae, it stated on the paper Siti Amirah 5KA i knew right away who it was from, of course la the best hand writing ever ;) oh dear i miss dtb badly too Mae! she wrote that she needed to see me during recess :D

then when perhimpunan over, i suddenly got hyper. -.-" i listened to all my gf's gossips. gosh i have been missed out alot. and we even played games, cause teacher dint come in class. (exams like tmrw and we can still play.. i know ) then suddenly they mentioned something like nobita and shizuka and i reflexly thought of Kelvin Doraemon!! and also they mentiond abt teddy bear too!! which!! remnded me of MR TEDDY ;( i was abt to cry. i rlly miss everybody! uhh

then after school over, i went home and quickly went for passport renewal. then got to KL.. my father took a road which got us stuck at traffic.. and guess where exactly?? on my RIGHT is PANGGUNG BANDARAYA DTB1!! on my LEFT is DEWAN BANDARAYA KUALA LUMPUR DTB2!! i was like OH NOOO!! i was nagging to my parents all the memories, and finally i cried. glaring LEFT n RIGHT ;( <333333



i miss everybody.
not even one singled out.
i miss the whole family.
me love you all.


anyway i got exams tmrw. so yeah. havent even started any studying -.-"