my own Promise Land

the sands are silky there
you could just lay on your back while its freaking hot
but
its still so cold, they play between your fingers as you stare up
glarely beneath the sun whom could just kill anyone who sees it directly
but no
over there
lifes too calm
theres not even one motion of grief
nothing could die
nobody will either

did i say ?
the heaven sent waters by the sea
theyre not even saltwater
they smell as good
and the hydra creatures would dance infront of you
make friends with you
theyre just not the kind who would hurt much less if to kill
theyre the kind who would be your lovers
thts fact if you would deny the fact that theyre not human much as you
but they have feelings and passion way more beyond a human's

and theres always the Great Square
"the great table", a hundred feet long covered with cashmere linings
the meals are always complete
you just close your eyes and think of a food you'd like from your heart
and to your hearts content,
when you open your eyes again, out came the Dream Feast that you wanted
the whole table, filled with it
and by the center of the Great Square
theres a beautiful candle lit
like those from the ancient elizabeth's time
the same ones King John kill to get
one lit of candle that could shine through out the night
and makes day brighter than the very own Promise Land's daylight.

i cant stop dreaming
i dont think i ever could.
its the kind of dream
that will last
even till my last breath
it lingers in those people who knows me
they would carry it on
and if theyre gone
the people who loved them will feel it too

Harry Potter gets high. ^^ cute!

Ayu Chan
awww :)

saturdayy last week...

the second day out in the cinemas. i rushed thereeeeee!! hehe :)

i loved the movie somehow,

kan Ayu Chan?? :))

:) lets pointe

^.^ !!

yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!
the beautiful book i read,
coming soon!
though unfortunately its cmg out during the doom gates of hell rings.. SPM TRIAL!


im really really really really looking forward to watch this one, from the read up, theres alot of part.. i held my breath. its that awesome

see you August 14th :)

Theres So Many Things in My Mind

though i could afford to tell only one.

i lay there, one heart with the earth, close to the ground

theres a shine at the end of this alley

she carries her mountain weight of foot

and took a step, one step closer everytime

the moon fell beaming a ray of that of an angel's

The glow strucked her heart

letting em beat faster by second

faster than seconds

a pounding horror, she afraid?

the owls a silence tonight

unusual for a darkness beauty

Everything slowed its volume

bit by bit all is mute

and only one that could be heard

its tempo creates music

like a tribes

calling its people

for fest has begun

the roaring life of her heart

calling for his.

would he hear it,

would he follow it,

would he come,

would he hear of what she needs to say

would he listen

would he react

would he open his heart

Will you?

its smooth..

.. what is?

.uhm.. the grass, theyre gentle..
*she feels the green field on her back, the ends of her fingertips*
.. arent they a magic, gentle and strong..

theyre just weeds, arent they. i dont think theyre strong. Even barely alive

*humble giggle*
youre so straight, never a dreamer, open your mind, Shiki. Theyve been stepped on for a million times. And look, *took Shiki's palm and rested it on the grass* still green and still a beauty

what a disgrace

a girl, bullying?
you gotta be kidding me..
no baby its a fact!

i just saw that on the news just now, okay in this kinda mood i'll have to use bahasa *memalukan kaum je, dah la melayu, perempuan pulak tu, kalau budak sekolah rendah ke tadika ke faham la kan, kecik lagi tak tau apa2 ni dah besar, anak dara, tak fikir mak ayah ke, tingkatan dua tak tau malu, nak tampar, hentam rejam orang lain, hang ingat hang sapa, apa masalah sampai nak pukul orang, bukan apa la kan, nak sebok hal orang lain just memalukan sangat la macam ni, masuk tv video buli tu, dah masuk tv ingat famous ah, apa nak jadi la remaja sekarang ni, because you stupid little bunch do you know the ministry hd to actually take their time off from saving the country to idiots like you, buang masa je, serious takde otak. mmg la takde kena mengena, its none of my business to say all this, but i just hate to see that with my own eyes, if it really happened in front of me i'd like to ask her face to face, "Kau nak rasa apa kau buat kat dia?" and give her the same thing, the same slap, the same punch, kick whatever she did to the victim, do the same to that brainless bully. Sheesh, pergi balik tadika la.

pms XD

its always hv been a thought.. cant simply breathe right now, all this circumstances are growing, larger by second. cant seem to understand my situations better than before. people tend to be better as they get more experience in life but i'm like stuck in my past. which is so blood sucking annoying. i want to go further but there just happen to the presence of bricks chained to my ankles. its like in my life.. my only goal is setting myself free from this moronic life. a battle between Tinkerbell and a big giant Titan Monster. only unfortunately, i am the Tinkerbell. aint it 'blatantly obvious' that i am an incompetence for that big monster T.T

the word "Free Time" vanished to me. ive always thought that life would be better off when you get older, teachers will be non existant, no 5 hours nags from them, no piles of homeworks, no such backstabbing 'best friends'. No cheating, unloyal boyfriends who chases after your circle of friends to find other options. Nay, fact is they will stay on for the rest of your lives. Your bosses are your teacher, and theyre far more worse, the nags you just really have to succumb to please them or its "OFF WITH HER HEAD" situation. Your homeworks are now your presentations, assignments .. from solving a math problem in an exercise books, now you gotta solve War of the World. Backstabbing colleagues, who just wanna fry you up. No dumbo boyfriends but its your husband who goes off at night, preferring to spend the night with bimbos and then you wish someone could please just eat you alive. What of a fool was i to think so closedly that life would get better as time goes by. "Free Time", Holidays, Festivals.. in time.. what the hell are they?