Mend Me

i did not see the light
if just in case youve got the wonder around ya
the sky's pigment of what i cant describe
the lights ray of each they represent of me
they use to shine better and brighter than sunlight
now they dimmed, bow, a low, a wilder tame
as everytime i try and say hello
they would match its tone
if The Sky could feel like us
right now it would cry for me
i have lost more than i deserved for
i cant i cant i cant adore
ive forgotten how
my friend, tonight
nigh me
would stay you by me?
have your faith lows't its grade
did you fought Them, changed your fate
im tired speaking of these
what low
what lost
this tale i am in
would i dance again
would i sing
to tell you of my stories
i'd have to write a whole book about it
my dear
Love so far away gone
too far for me to catch em back
feel them again in my hands
i would like to say im sorry
but who would forgive me you see
I was a dancer
and i lost my confidence
it went leaving me empty
knock me and you hear me echo
I was a dreamer
and i lost my imaginations
healing in an institution
they say im crazy
yes who am i to deny
I want to be it
The crazy miss
dance her night away
a Queen in her dream realm
yet the solid knights captured me
they threw me in a dark hole
and took my dancing and dreams from me
enough
enough
im afraid
yes now i am afraid
i dont want to feel any longer
Love i pray you would stay away from me
rather you be gone forever
than to come back haunting me
And i will learn to live
Like a lifeless men
so mend me
if i were to be born again
new born someday
Mend me in a way
i wont come across such ideas
of dancing and its clues
my shut up heart will bring me
along a way
i would never find you.

I Will Always Remember

in places no one will find all your feelings so deep inside.

Hayuju

dear kejumi..i miss you nutcracker :D

Left

Shouldnt i took th walk home
No i shouldnt have
No if only i had known
Curse these silent walls between me
It serves the gap above my head
Twisted lies through my heart
And now i fell
surprisingly i couldnt tell
i should have just sewn my lips
and kept my hearts content
Even if it screams to its wonder
To the top of its peaks maybe a note higher
i had the chance to choose
But as blunt as i am
Im A Mistake
Love would leave me
if it passes by
The eyes would blind and the blind would see
Yes fact is painful
If Love comes it would leave me behind
It would look at me for a breath hold
And let me endure its beauty for a blink
to an abrupt leave it left me
No mercy of erasing my memory of it
Putting me up with this
Making me miss it crazy
As it Goes.

Different kinds of answers

girl - we've been together playing a fool all this while, i think we should get on with it.. to the next level?

boy-definitely, what do you want to do next?..

boy2-what do you have in mind?

girl- its not about doing anything. Damnit why are you so slow?

boy-whats the problem? did i say something wrong? i was sure i wasnt. you cant expect me to be perfect, im no mind reader.

boy2- alright, then how do i get faster?

girl- ugh. stop blabbing. just answer me. honestly. with that smothered in nothing else.

boy- okay?

boy2- scouts honour

girl- well.. what do you.. think of me?

boy- hwhat? is this some kinda joke?

boy2- oh no its a death trap *giggles*

girl- will you just answer?

boy- fine. i think youre an awesome n cool person if you werent i wont be here with you, got it?

boy2- im not a romantic and i dont know how to arrange my words like shakespeare does but i think that youre just the person that i can be old with

girl- next question. Why do you love me?

boy- thats simple. its because youre really beautiful

boy2- because the first time i saw you, the time you accidentally got mustard on your white dress and laughed about it you got my heart strucked. that was really funny.

girl- thats it?

boy- well what else you want me to say?

boy2- yea and.. not to mention you looked really beautiful in that white dress.. with um, a bit of yellow splattered on it..

girl- you know beauty ages..

boy- so? thats the future. im in love with you now

boy2- thats just physical

girl- what does that even mean.

boy- whats wrong with the questions, man i hate it when you get naggy

boy2- it means that, i didnt fell in love with you because of your perfect face, or the way your hair falls to your shoulders when you untie em tho it looks breathtaking, but i love you 'cause of your heart. its just who you are. its how you made me feel, i feel like when im with you, i stand as the most luckiest man alive. Will you please stop asking all this again, you just made me sound like shakespeare, thats very gay.

<3>

October

it is the month of wishing.

there are thousands to wish for

the playing melody behind it

supporting its imagination

encrypting illusions

what should be written

the day passes by once

with time too short

and this head for a running

not a stop for the surface

keep on swimming

find your wish

for the day that will never come back

find your wish

grip on it

and survive massacres

think about the day that you win over Chaos

feel upon trillions of heart that had suffer

and dissolves in a sudden victory

grasp upon that colour

them who will paint your future

plan it well.

random

pfft, we ALWAYS fall for the wrong guys

i know. its freaking sad isnt it?!

playing a fool, and some is such a whacko, and some ugh! i cant say anymore

well that should be the way now with teenagers.. cause the only right guy the dreamy one the perfect one is the one youre gonna marry in the future.

i guess youre right. love at this age. it will always be the wrong guy, or the *coughs* wrong girl.. if it were to be the right one we would have to marry him