more to come :D

3 AM

3 am and i still awake writing a song, if i get it all down on paper its no longer inside of me threatening the life it belongs to.

say i cant be honest
the verses left me
im lost in the deep heartest
i cant open my eyes to see

tell me why now
tell me why you'd do this
tell me what did i miss
just make me smile, i forgot how

i turned my back for just a second
spent my minutes thinking of you
but then i looked back, i found my heart got beaten
beaten away from my dream come true

why now, why not later
i still want you to be here
i still want for you to be near
but all i can actually say is goodbye dear

i'll let you be today
you can say whatever you want to say
i may laugh infront of you, i cant hide
but i am really just tearin up inside

i'll just
i dont know
maybe, of course
i'll have to say goodbye
but i'll tell the whole world
im not.
gonna say
it.
now.
or ever.

CHICHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!

Anis: SITI JUST CAME BACK FROM THE SHOWER!
Qistina: I want pie.
Anis: Oh... She's back now. :D How was your shower?

OK THATS ALL! XD
WE LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!

'Yo mamma's so fat, when she stepped on the scale, it said 'to be continued''. HAHAHAHAHHA.
It was from the Youtube video.

Razlan: MAK CIK!

:D


Douchebag's are not worth the while :D :D :D
- Qistina >:D & Anis ;D (<--- Let us belanja you ice-cream BR!!)

<3

i miss <3

what i wrote in Class

when i sleep last night,
t took me such a long time,
just for me to go dreaming,
felt so hard, stopped my breathing,
whats in my head i cant decipher
....
let .. be, let.. remain not knowing how this feels
or if .. knows let .. go as it kills
when i woke up by my first alarm ring,
i refused, to get up to start a new day
my head was heavy, my eyes still closed.
still sore from tears and chocolates.
when i look at the sky during homeroom,
the clouds glower as they cover the bright sky with grey and unhappy shades of dim
as if to suit my mood, my heart.
the clouds unconnected, broken apart.
where am i? where are they?
my Friends are infront of me asking me why
i couldnt answer all i did was cry
i feel so alone
as that bird flying solo in the sky
telling me even if youre alone you still need to fly and move forwards until the day you die.

i was staring, out the window, the rain was mild, not heavy but calming.


as i was studying Economics..
i saw Affin Bank! HAHAHAHHA. lol. yeah.



ive been wasting inks on pretty papers
just to complain all my never ending heartbreaks
so i saved a little space in my heart
to fit you in the chapters of my life
ill wait for you to come back
i'll wait for you to love me
oh i'll wait for the day
for who knows will never come
well someday we'll see

..

my eyes are like not mine anymore. i wanted to cry after curtain call, but i couldnt. but in the end i broke down in the car. and at grandma's bday. and after that, and today too. went to school but couldnt stand everything so went back early. and some more being a Ketua class. -.- im not myself.. today is so dragggggyyyyyy. im like have to carry my own legs to walk. til i reached home, and slept for a few hours. that doesnt happen daytime.. for me atleast. i listenen to have you ever- Brandy til i slept. and woke up, my eyes got worse. dull, boring, lifeless, heartbroken.
i practically ate and ate and ate chocolates, cheese sticks, and wasted a whole lot of body water.

and then i thought to myself, i need to take classes, in my head theres only 2 things. latin and ballet. my dad wanted me to enroll in Peter's class, but then i thought i wanted to take Ballet first..
so yeah. im searching for ballet classes now.

life